The need to post...

I feel compelled to get on here and post, even though I don't have any burning, well-rounded thoughts to share. (Not that I've had any of those lately: see last few posts!) I guess I'll just free write to make sure my blog doesn't feel ignored...

I feel a lot of stress right now because of my looming graduation date. I really want to graduate on time, and my final paper is not finished, barely started really. I think if I can carve out a little time soon, I will feel loads better. Here's hoping I can do that.

Work is both really good and not really good. Some days I think, "Yes, managing a store is the next thing I want to do! I enjoy these people." Other days, I think, "Oh my word, there is no way I can manage these people! People are so...complex and troubling. Fun, some days, but a lot of trouble other days. How will I ever manage them and keep my composure?" So I go back and forth with staying here in management training.

Class was really good last night. I'm in a survey of Christian doctrine, starting from ground zero. We hit a tangent last night, a little side note about the idea of sacramental marriage. I decided that we have one of those. And it made me smile right there in class.

I wish I knew what I wanted to do when I grow up. One of my partners at the store mentioned once that I should be a life coach. I'm not even sure what they do, but the sound of it was like hearing a favorite song that you haven't heard in a long time. How on earth do you get started at that? I'd also like to do something on radio or television. What in the world would that be? No idea. I just feel like I have a whole lot of untapped potential that needs to be used in a big and wide-spread way. (I hate seeing that in print. Perhaps I just have an unchecked ego? Yuck...) In the spirit of being honest, I won't delete the last few sentences of this free write...

And last, because I have to get off here and do some reading for grad school, a partner asked me about my faith yesterday. Right at work. He was wondering how leaving the ministry had affected it. I guess he may have been asking why I left the church (though I still attend, just don't work for them anymore). It was nothing I mind talking about, but nothing I could talk about that succinctly at work. I need to come up with a more concise answer, I guess. I wonder--do I give the same answer every time I'm asked?

So, what's on your mind today?